Hey Joe, I see you have not been posting for very long, Welcome!! A lot of good thoughts here. I do not know you, dont know how much studying you have done how long you have been associated with Jehovahs witnesses. So all I can do is share what helped me and still continues to help. First it seems this scripture gets overlooked quite often.
John 4: 20 Our forefathers worshiped in this mountain; but YOU people say that in Jerusalem is the place where persons ought to worship.” 21 Jesus said to her: “Believe me, woman, The hour is coming when neither in this mountain nor in Jerusalem will YOU people worship the Father. 22 YOU worship what YOU do not know; we worship what we know, because salvation originates with the Jews. 23 Nevertheless, the hour is coming, and it is now, when the true worshipers will worship the Father with spirit and truth, for, indeed, the Father is looking for suchlike ones to worship him. 24 God is a Spirit, and those worshiping him must worship with spirit and truth.”
Please, Please notice carefully what Jesus told her, Not in this mountain or in that mountain. He was referring to a established means of worship. It was going to be done away with. As humans we find it a matter of pride to be woshiping at a big huge temple, and established "Mountain" . Heb 13: 13 NLB says"So let us go out to Him outside the camp and bare the disgrace he bore." Also note how Abraham was to also leave the established city and take up dwelling in tents. outside of the established means of comfort and security, It takes much faith and reliance on God and Christ to do this. It can be illustrated like this. If a ship is anchored at a dock, what purpose does the ship serve? NONE!! in order for the ship to be of any value it must be out to sea, and what is out at sea? danger. But with a good and experienced captain the ship can fulfill its purpose. You must be your own Captain. Study and studying will give you the skills necessary to be a succesful Christian. In my 40 plus years as a JW I have come to learn that not many JWs truly do any studying, or pondering on what they are learning from the bible. I did and that is why I am here where I am. The Jehovahs witnesses can no longer fulfill my spiritual needs, neither can they fill the spiritual needs of my family. It takes alot of trust and faith in God to worship outside of an established church. May God and Christ kindly give you what you are searching for. Peace my Brother
Affectionately: Brother of the Hawk ( I will surrender my mind no more, forever )
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